Blogging at work

I'm bartending tonight. And I thought my wedding had obscure music.
This couple picked weirder music than casey did!! But the bride's
dress is absolutely beautiful. I think its from David's Bridal. I
vaguely remember trying on something similar in red. This one is a lot
like mine except strapless. The blue in the back I'd a little
different. But what bride is going to say someone else's dress is
nicer than their own?? I like it. But I dont think I could have found
a more perfect dress for me. But that's just me.

So... Christmas was fun. My first christmas as a married woman. It was
memorable. We had two Christmases, which I think is how its always
going to be from now on. We spent most of Christmas eve with casey's
family. Then at around 1030 we went over to my family's house because
we celebrate on the 24th. Casey's family does the while Christmas
morning thing. I ended up losing my car keys on Christmas day. And I
still haven't got any idea where I put them.

And on a sidenote, since its fresh on my mind.... Kellianne.... Dont
register at target. They'll screw you on returns. We ended up getting
3 of the same cookware sets and target wouldn't let us return it
without a gift receipt. Well, we didnt get the gift receipts. So
basically I'm good on cookware for the next FORTY YEARS!!!!

Anyway... I should get back to work!!

Have a safe new year everyone! Love you!

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hundred dollars richer!!!

whoo hoo!!! you read that right!!! i won 100 bucks from the Hotel!!

we had our holiday party today. i took lunch from one job to go to the other job so that i could get a present! well they have a new thing at the hotel. we played bingo first, after we ate some FANTASTIC food!! yum-o! so we played three games of bingo with one card.. the first game was 4 corners.. and of course.. in that game i get 5 across! go figure! but i ended up winning the next game before they even called any numbers!! :) we got to choose between two prizes.. and i picked the one that looked like a box of chocolates! haha.. not that i wanted that.. but it turns out that i could have won a camcorder... which would have been cool.. but that would have meant that casey and i would have had three between the two of us and the two that he already has, don't get enough use as it is! (he still hasn't uploaded the vids from the cruise.. which was 4 months ago!!! hahahaha... )

so... random post.. have a super fabulous day!

surveys help pass the time...

A
Are you available?: Not for a long time. I wouldn’t even know how to be single again.
What is your age?: 24
Astrology Sign?: Pisces!!

• B
Do you know anyone named Brian?: why yes.. as a matter of fact.
When is your birthday?: March 18th

• C
What’s your favorite candy? Hmm.. fruity.. Starbust.. chocolately… Caramelo!
What color is your computer? black

• D
Do you daydream?: yes I do!
Whats your favorite kind of dog? Favorite kind of dog has always been Huskies.. But I love my Shih Tzu, Stewie Face!

• E
Have you ever been to the emergency room? Hahaha.. countless times
Ever pet an elephant? Nope.. I think circus’ freak me out a little

• F
Do you use fly swatters? Hehe.. yes… and I get on missions where I have to kill all of them!!!
Do you like Fall Out Boy? I don’t own anything of theirs.. but I guess they’re okay

• G
Do you chew gum?: yup
Do you like gory movies?: I’ve sat through saw 2 so I guess I can handle them
Girlfriend? Aww.. I love my friends!! And they’re all girls.. although I’d love a gay guy as a friend

• H
How are you? Sick and tired of feeling like I’m in a rut.
What's your height?: 5'5”
What color is your hair? Dark brown baby!
Have you ever ice skated?: oh yeah! But not since I was a youngin’

• J
Favorite Jelly Bean?: hmm.. I’m cool off of jelly beans.. I had this phase where I was hooked on jelly bellys for a while and I got hecka sick.. I think it was because of the buttered popcorn one.
Do you wear jewelery?: oh yes.. never leave home without them. Earrings, necklace and rings on each ring finger.. and can’t forget the tongue ring!

•K
Who do you want to kill?: FLIES!!!!
Have you ever flown a kite?: it’s been ages
Do you think kangaroos are cute?: I guess.. but I love the kangaroo in the cartoon that keeps beating up Sylvester!! CLASSIC!

• L
Are you laid back? I’d say so.. usually I just go with the flow
Lions or tigers? Bears..
Do you like black liquorice?: gag me! Heck no.. although I recently realized that root beer smells just like black licorice.. but I can still drink that. Go figure..

• M
Favorite store at the Mall?: Target, Torrid and FOOD COURT!
Favorite movie?: The Grinch, an movie for the ages! But there are too many

• N
Do you have a nickname?: Babygirl, Tina, Ballerina…
Do you prefer night or day?: night..

• O
Are you an only child? Third of four..
Do you like the color orange? Oooh yes… very much!

•P
Do you know anyone named Penelope?: the family van. She’s falling apart.. poor girl
Favorite flavor of popcorn?: kettle.. is there any other way to go?!

• R
Do you think you're always right? I try to stand by my word.. usually i won’t be pushy if I think there’s a chance I might be wrong
Do you watch reality TV?: eehh.. not really

• S
Do you prefer sun or rain?: rain!! I love gloomy days!
Do you like snow?: I’ve only seen it a few times.. but I enjoy a romp in the snow every now and again

• T
Time to go to sleep?: last night was midnight-ish.. usually around there
Tomatoes?: depends on how I feel.. not preferably.. but they won’t kill me

• U
Can you ride a unicycle?: hehe.. that’d be funny to watch. Wouldn’t it?!
Do you know anyone with a unibrow?: hehehehe… We Met on the LPGA Tour… (anyone, anyone, where’s that line from?!?)

• V
Did you ever watch Veggie Tales?: heh.. nope… I don’t have a child.

• W
What's your worst habit?: eating until I’m STUFFED and letting the bedroom get messy and cluttered..
What do you want right now?: to find a job I absolutely LOVE…

• X
Have you ever had an x-ray?: hahaha.. PLENTY! Sonogram too.. and I wasn’t even pregnant.

• Y
Do you like the color yellow?: I guess.. it brings me bad memories..
Do you yell when you're angry?: actually I get really high pitched.. I’ll yell if I’m really upset though

•Z
Do you believe in the zodiac?: I guess so.. but I won’t put too much stock in them

Six lasts:
6. Last dream: I don’t really remember.. but I think it was a bad one.. because I’ve been in a funky mood all morning.
5. Last beverage: mmm.. cold water!
4. Last person to make you laugh: Cassie & Adriana last night at dinner.. and my Tu’I foot!
3. Last phone call: The Ho, my Mamacita!
2. Last time you cried?: hmm… I think it was because my migraine hurt so bad it brought me to tears.. that and the fact that I was hunched over the toilet seat waiting to throw up! Not a good night for me.
1. Last time you hugged someone?: caseybabyloveness this morning when he left for work. as a matter of fact.. i need a hug right now.

this one is for my Schrockstar...

Just kidding.... it's for everyone!! the whole handful of you guys! :)

kellianne pointed out that apparently i've been slacking off on posting regularly.. so i'll just ramble..

warning.. random thoughts ahead... this might get long and scary. you know how i love to type.

have you guys seen hairspray?? when casey and i went on our honeymoon at the end of july/beginning of august carnival cruises was promoting the hell out of that movie! i swear.. i must have watched that featurette at least 6 times a day... once i started watching it i couldn't stop.. and of course it's on the channel that turns on right when the tv is powered on. addicting.. and it's comforting at the same time because i just bought the 2 disc special "shake and Shimmy" edition.. and it's got the same featurette which just brings me back to the islands.. such a fantastic week.. but that's a different branch on this tree of random thoughts.. anyway.. they have this one extra where you can learn the steps to a couple of the dances.. i watched it.. and was tempted to get up and try the moves.. but there are a few things holding me back.. 1. i have this unrealistic fear that there is someone in the window watching my every movement.. kind of like that guy in "Waiting".. where he couldn't go pee in public bathrooms.. same deal.. i don't know what it is.. but it's crazy that i can be self conscious in "my own home" (and you know why i put those in quotation marks.. ) anyway.. hairspray is good.. but it wasn't great.. i was expecting more.. i tend to even skip chapters through the songs that just aren't that entertaining.. i love that all the actors sing and dance though.. i love musicals.. they make me smile.. by far.. Phantom of the Opera, the movie is probably one of my favoritest.. only because Gerard Butler is my Scottish God! like a greek god, but scottish.. besides.. HAVE YOU SEEN 300!?!?!?!? HELLO?!!??!?! enough said..

i'm at work right now and i keep looking at this picture of my dog stewie.. and it's right beside this picture that i printed out of the worm from "Labrynth" you know which one i'm talking about.. he said.. in a english accent... "don't go that way... never go that way... she should have gone the other way.. would have taken her straight to the castle." well.. this worm looks like my stewie! ehhee.. i swear.. there are sometimes where stewie is looking up at us and he just looks like he's say.. "don't go that way.. go the other way." so of course.. since casey loves to give our dogs their own voices.. he ended up giving stewie a voice that is pretty much that worm with a Stitch kind of cross/mix.. it's funny.. even though we had to put casey's other dog down.. a beautiful purebred black lab, a week before thanksgiving.. he still gets "channelled" from her. it's so funny.. casey will be talking and then all of a sudden Ashes will start speaking.. and then when she's done casey pretends to shake out of it.. he's so weird.. i'm glad he's okay enough to do that though. i was afraid he wasn't going to recover from having to put her down.

casey and i made this deal.. we weren't going to buy each other anything for christmas.. and of course.. every year we tell each other that we're not going to buy anything for each other and we end up always getting something.. but of course i always go over board.. thankfully casey's birthday is in february so i can save a thing or two for his birthday, so i can stretch out the "dang it! i told you not to get me anything" attitude until then. :) i'd tell you guys what i got him but he might read this thing-a-ma-blog so i won't put it up until after.

and on the subject of christmas.. i feel terrible.. casey's mom was having a heck of a time trying to figure out what to get me.. and i'm like really.. nothing is perfectly fine.. but of course, since i'm like her "only daughter" she needed to get me something. well for our wedding we ended up getting like 4 cookware sets.. 2 of the same exact one.. HELLO?!?! what in the hell are registries good for if you end up getting 4 cooking sets and 3 blenders?!? but i digress.. i have recently become obsessed with Rachael Ray.. and i know that she's annoying to some people.. but I LOVE HER!! she's adorably goofy.. it's funny to watch her! so.. i decided that i wanted to get her pots and pans set because they're a pretty blue... well the reason i feel bad is because UPS dropped them off at the house the other day and i answered the door.. and of course.. since they're christmas presents and they're surprises.. they weren't properly wrapped... OF COURSE.. i open the door.. and see them sitting outside the door and i look back at casey's mom and say "i probably wasn't supposed to see those, was i?" she got sad and left the room.. i felt terrible.. not only for ruining the surprise but also for her buying them.. they're not cheap.. but casey's mom is one of those people... if she wants it.. and you can afford it without going under, then get it.. why not? and unfortunately i think she's rubbing off some of that mentality on me. poor casey.. me and his mom together shopping is a deadly combination.. especially for electronics or phones.. thankfully we both have the iphone.. she bought hers back in july and got it the day before our wedding. i only got mine in the beginning of november.. casey said that i can't get another phone for another four years.. and i was all confused.. "i hadn't heard that from cingular.. is that their new policy.. " where he came back with.. "no it's mine." hhmmpphhh.. it's okay though.. becuase i don't really want to change back and forth from this phone.. which JD knows was like my favoritest past time.. haha.. this year i have had 4 phones.. my razr got decapitated.. i went to open it up and the freakin flap completely fell off.. i missed that phone call.. :)

so... enough randomness for today.. is that good for you KLuv?!?!?!

i hope everyone has a pleasant weekend.. tonight i get to help my mom at the hotel. we have a quinceneara tomorrow that we have to set up for. and i'm going to help her put chair covers and bows on the chairs.. which is exactly what i was doing about 5 months and 1 week ago today!!! :) can you guess why??

love.....

something fun.. just for scuzz..

just something fun that i stole from gayspace... and because it's keeping me awake at work.


[1.] Where was the first time you ever kissed the last person you kissed?
in his bed.. ;) no seriously.. we were tickling each other!

[2.] What's the greatest thing that happened to you today?
waking up is a pretty great gift! Ironically I desperately want to go back to sleep.

[3.] How many best friends do you have?
true friends? I’ve been blessed with a handful of those

[4.] Would you rather get up early or sleep in?
sleep in.. always!

[5.] Tell me where you got each article of clothing you're wearing?
shoes and socks and undies @ kohls, jeans, beater, and pullover @ old navy, bra @ victoria’s secret. ;)

[6.] What's the closest thing to you that is brown?
my pull over!

[7.] What would you change about your life right now?
I’d get a job that I love and move out of the in laws.

[8.] Would you rather smile over a lie or cry over the truth?
I cry over the truth all the time.

[9.] What's on your bedroom floor right now?
Tu’I’s doggy bed and clutter.

[10.] Who was the last person you got into an argument with?
casey and I pretend to argue.. otherwise.. I really can’t remember

[11.] Do you trust people?
depends on first impressions. Otherwise… it takes a while.

[12.] If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?
somewhere with actual season changes. But as long as I’m with casey.. I’m good.

[13.] Have you ever been out of the country?
for our honeymoon. We went on a Caribbean cruise to st Thomas, dominica, Barbados, st lucia, and Antigua!

[14.] Could you go a day without eating?
I guess I could.. but it wouldn’t be pretty the next day.

[15.] How much do looks matter?
they matter some. But a great personality and confidence can bump up the “attractiveness”
(i wonder what happened to question 16... )

[17.] When was the last time you had your hair cut?
a couple months ago.. Eddie messed up and had to do it again.. and still messed up.. :(

[18.] Would you rather be mad or sad?
smad.. like Sookie!

[19.] Does it take a lot to make you cry?
not really.. but I can pretty much cry on command.

[20.] What's the best feeling in the world?
feeling loved. And being hugged by strong arms.

[21.] Are you close with your mom?
I am now.. I love that Ho!

[22.] Are your parents strict?
not strict.. just a little unhinged which just makes him seem crazy!

[23.]Do you tell your parents everything?
nope.. I tell casey everything.

[24.] Would you rather be a bird or a fish?
bird.. I’m already a pisces..

[25.] Name one fear you have?
darkness.. seriously.. leaving it up to my imagination is much scarier than anything out there.

[26.] If you need to go to the store a block away, do you walk or drive?
depends on how much I’m going to buy.. probably walk though. It’ll stop me from buying too much.

[27.] Does the thought of marriage scare you?
oh yeah.. it absolutely terrifies me. ;P

[28.] How many kids do you want?
:) 7 but realistically.. at this point.. I’ll be glad to have one!

[29.] What's your favorite color to wear?
black or blue.. like bruises

[30.] Who was the last person in your bedroom besides you?
casey and baby Tu’i

[31.] What are you doing today?
working and running some errands.

[32.] Would you rather be rich & sad or poor & happy?
well I’m already poor and happy.. and I’ve maintained..

[33.] Do you work out?
hahahahahahaa… yes.

[34.] What would you do if you found a dinosaur egg?
I’d sit on it until it hatched and then raise it as one of my own! Tu’I needs a brother!

[35.] Do you get bored easily?
I’m sorry, what? I wasn’t paying attention….

[36.] What's something that someone can do that really bothers you?
I really greatly dislike racial comments.. they makes me absolutely crazy..

[37.] Did you ever want to change your name when you were younger?
yeah.. I tried to get people to call me Valerie but it didn’t work. I grew up as Val.

[38.] Do you wish you were famous?
I think Infamous would be more funner!

[39.] Do you make a wish at 11:11?how come??

[40.] When you're at the beach, do you swim or lay out more?
last time I was at the beach I laid out.. in Antigua!

[41.] Who's the last text message you received from and what did it say?
from my sister.. it said “ I need suspenders for dad… some heavy duty construction strength claws… I’ll check online.”

moving out....

so i have this dilemma.. right now casey and i live downstairs in his parents house. we don't pay rent, we don't buy food. we don't pay for utilities. we pretty much just live here. i help out as much as i can with the cleaning and washing clothes and other things. but casey's parents pretty much cover everything else. casey's cute... he's optimistic that we'll be out of here by the end of january. i think it's a cute idea. that gives us just under two months to get approved and find a place within our price range and move everything that we have out and then back in. now... the problem. we live in california. we don't have jobs that pay 6 figures and we are living in one of the top five most expensive areas to live in, in the united states. i mean.. there's thinking positively and then there's just dreaming. the kind of home i want.. is a dream. the kind of home that casey wants is positive thinking. he wants a single bedroom condo. which.. when and from how it's looking right now IF we ever start a family... a single bedroom condo might only cut it for about the first year or two.

my sister is getting married in august. she wants to go look at an open house tomorrow with her fiance. it's a house in the next city over, 4 bedrooms 3 bathrooms.. now.. imagine in california how much that would cost... i'm thinking maybe 850,000 i'll be surprised if it's less.. now the reason she wants casey and i to go look at it with her is because she wants us to go in on it and buy it with them. the idea.. on the surface.. is practical. i make the least amount of money between the four of us and that is with two jobs. but the situation is not ideal. i don't want to live with another married couple. what the hell is that?!? granted it would be my sister.. but like my sister started her toast at the wedding.. "valerie's been my roommate for ever." i don't want that. casey and i are already "not really" married. we're not on our own and we're not living like married couples should live.. and i know that i should be happy and glad that we're not hurting for money yet because we're not spending anything yet. people are telling us not to rush out of his parents house because it's just the way of california now. it's hard to live on your own if you don't have a really good job.

i just want to get a place in a good area where i don't feel like i'm drowning and suffocating every month to keep the utilities working and the mortgage paid. i want to be comfortable and not have to worry about creditors calling up and looking for payments.

if only casey would consider moving to texas.. ;)

the greedy post

it's called the greedy post because all i'm going to talk about it what i have and what i want and what i wish i had. basically i'm venting. so apologies in advance for the incredibly long post i'm about to shoot at you.

i'm happy. i have and have had a pretty good life. i have an amazing husband who is just the perfect guy for me. i have been very fortunate to come across some very honest to goodness genuinely kind people. those are the girls that helped me get through the two years away from home and missing everything else that i loved that wasn't in texas. but...

there are just some things in life that i wish were different. i see my friends and just random people in general and they're doing things that they love. i wish i had a job that i loved. i wish i had something that i was excited to get up in the morning for and be like, "ah sweet! i get to go do that today!" ok ok.. i don't know if anyone ever actually does that. but i wish that i had that.

i wish i had a family of my own.

right now i have two jobs, well more like one and a half. the bartending gig only happens once every few weeks. and i work at a customs brokerage. i won't try to explain it. i've been working there almost a year and i'm still not quite sure how to explain what we do. lots of paperwork and sitting at a desk. me no likey. i want an active job. i coached softball with a "former" friend (whom i'll get to in a minute) and i had a blast. granted the girls were just getting into high school and thought that they were the hottest things to hit softball since nokona started making gloves. they weren't that good. though they had potential. and the thing is.. they don't want to learn it. i play in slow pitch leagues now. nothing compared to the competitive softball that we used to play. but that doesn't stop me from having the same fire in my eyes for winning. which, might i add, scares the pants off the less competitive girls on the team. but they don't know what it's like to be on a team that competes for love of the game and the pride of playing. it's a character flaw which i hope i never lose. they don't get it. they never will.

ok.. get me going on softball and i swear i'll last for years.. talking about the Glory Days of our time. but anyway, about my "former" friend. and i won't spend much typing energy on this girl because she's just not worth it anymore. and it wasn't me who threw the 14 year friendship away. it was her.. she walked away.. so to speak. Kelly was in my wedding. she helped me a lot in the last few days before casey and i got hitched. then she did something stupid and i called her on it and she just stopped talking to me. i haven't talked to her since a few days after the wedding in july. and i really can't do anything except, shrug my shoulders and say "oh well." can't fight for something that doesn't want to be fought for.

i enjoy friends that can take the crap from each other. it makes a friendship richer if we call each other on our shit. it's healthy. and it's important. i'm glad that i have friends like that. the others just fade into acquaintances.

i'm not religious. but i have been very blessed to come across the people that have influenced and touched my life. my girls from texas are high up on the list. casey for giving me the confidence that i lacked before realizing that someone can actually fall in love, really fall in love faults and all. i am happy to wake up beside him every morning.

and in this incredibly long post that i hope didn't take up too much of your time, i have to talk about my family. my family that i gripe and moan about but of course love with all my heart because they are the ultimate influence in my life. they have shaped my personality and outlook on life, in more good ways than bad. obviously the huge change in my life happened when i went to texas. and my family let me do that. with my younger brother being autistic it's not easy for my family to take vacations and stuff like that. but they let me do that. and i love them for that.

but i think this post got hugely long.. sorry about that. i promise i'll try to stick to a lot of little posts from now on. i just needed to get those off my chest.

love you girls.

Testing again

Because I'm bored at work... and there isn't anything for me to do. If
I get caught on my phone so much I'm going to get in trouble!

Such a slow week!good news is... It's almost Christmas! Its the most
wonderul time of the year.

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Testing testing

This is a picture of my stewie!!!



Just checking to see if I can poat from my phone. Sent from my iPhone

Val in the Hizzo!!!

blogging... the word makes me cringe. I can't explain why. it sounds so... geeky. but i love to type.. so it kind of evens out. and since it seems funner (more fun?) than myspace "i'll give it a whirl" <--- that's from one of my Favoritest Christmas movies EVER... Home Alone. oh yes.. it's a good one.

not much to say for my first post.. except "Sup Homies!"