Sunday, October 26, 2008

twilight phenomena

so it's not like we didn't know that twilight was a crazy phenomenon..

but i was at work on saturday night bartending for what happened to be my favoritest party i've ever worked.. it was a quinceneara.. and i was pouring some of the girls a virgin margarita.. which really isn't even worth it if you think about it.. it's just lime juice and sweet and sour mix with ice.. i guess they just wanted to take advantage of the open bar.. even though they were talking about drinking already.. which unnerved me.. i mean, you're 15.. and you're drinking already?? i didn't even have a sip of something alcoholic when i turned 21.. but i guess i'm a little different.. but i digress...

anyway.. so i'm making these "fake" drinks for these girls so they can feel older, i guess.. and one of them starts talking to her friend about this show on HBO called True Blood and i just start grinning like a freakin' crazy person.. she's telling her friend the premise of the show, like the girl who can read minds falls in love with a vampire.. and she goes "oh my god.. this is such a rip off of twilight." and i almost laugh out loud.. and while she's talking i just kind of turn slightly and go.. "like twilight??" and point to my book sitting on the table behind me.. bwahahhahaa.. and then they go.. "aww... twilight.. i love that book.. " and i'm just grinning.. because i love that it's so popular.. i understand that there is a whole decade between me and them.. but i don't give a damn.. because the story of twilight transcends all generations.. :)

and that's my story..

Friday, October 24, 2008

eeps!!! i'm so excited!!

so for those of you that really know me.. you know i get obsessive.. and well.. twilight is my obsession right now..

in almost exactly 27 days, the twilight movie is getting released in theatres and i swear.. i'm seriously giddy.. i haven't been this giddy on the inside since my wedding day waiting to walk down the aisle.. and then water works started. but that's neither here nor there.. the point it.. i can't wait!!

i just saw a tv spot for twilight on youtube and oh my goodness gracious.. this movie could own my soul if i let it.. and i probably would.. but i'm kind of attached to it.. but for now.. with an exception to casey.. it owns my every waking second.. :)

ok that's all.. fangirly time.. over.. for now..

Thursday, October 23, 2008

it's all for something...

People always come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support... to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, This person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe in it because it is real. But, only for a SEASON. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.

LIFETIME relationships teach you a lifetime of lessons; Those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people anyway, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind, but friendship is clairvoyant. Some people come into our lives and quickly go, some people become friends and stay awhile leaving beautiful footprints in our hearts and we are never quite the same because we have made a good friend!

how much do you love that???

i stole it from my sister's best friend's blog.. and i identified with it.. and felt every word that was written..

thanks for letting me snag it joh.. even though i didn't really wait for a response. :P

although, it kind of puts my last post into perspective.. maybe i was just supposed to see that she was doing fine and she's got a family and she's healthy and doing well. i guess i'll just have to believe that.. even though reason and season friends are "gone" from your life.. you don't ever really forget them..

everything that happens in life will invariably leave some sort of imprint on you.. believe me i know.. but.. it's how you come out of the situation that matters and who you have with you at the end of it that will define, reason, season or lifetime...

i love all my girls!! BCB for life! bwahahahaha..

Saturday, October 18, 2008


so.. have you ever had one of those encounters where you just glance around and see someone and you think they're a person you might have known but it's been so long since you've seen them that they look completely unchanged and utterly different all at the same time.. well it happened to me today..

i think i "saw" a friend from high school who of course was in a grade ahead of me as all my close high school friends were except for casey.. well.. after she graduated she went on to san diego state and then ended up getting pregnant and having a baby boy.. we lost contact, which sucked because my junior year she became one of my closest friends.. she knew pretty much everything about me.. things i've only told like a handful of people.. and she told me things about herself as well, like how she felt when her parents divorced and what kinds of things she was going through with that.. we were confidantes and buddies.. she was one of the popular people.. the beautiful people.. but she still chose to be my friend.. which was cool.. not that i wanted to be popular by association.. i hate the spotlight.. it's not where i'm comfortable.. she took the glory, while i stood on the sidelines where i liked to be.. we still had a solid friendship.. we were the girl jocks.. we became friends the year before when i made the varsity basketball team as a sophomore.. but after high school once you graduate or when you're left behind in my case.. things change and life moves on.. i started dating casey and she went on with her life.. friendships strain.. we just kind of lost contact...

anyway.. so i went out shopping with casey's mom this morning and we went to the grocery store.. and as we're leaving, we're putting the crap in the back of her jeep.. i look over to the right.. for no real reason.. but i see this woman stepping out of her van.. and she smiles at me.. and the first thing i was thinking was.. "wow.. she looks a lot like natalie.. " and i was kind of just stuck.. something fell out of the jeep as i lifted the hitch and casey's mom was like '' wtf??" and i'm still stuck.. this is a friend that i have had minimal contact through throughout the last 8 years, a few phone calls every few years and in the beginning penpalling back and forth.. and i swear it's her.. but it doesn't look like her.. but it must be because it's her.. but she looks so different.. but she's got the same face.. and she smiled at me.. so she must have recognized me a little.. but i don't know.. it's just weird.. i wanted to shout out to her and ask if she was who i thought she was.. she had a thuggish sort of husband.. and that's how i remember him being described, and she has a son who was about the age he should be... but she also had a daughter.. and i vaguely remember hearing that she had another kid.. i couldn't remember if it was a boy or girl though..

but yeah.. she got her baby girl and her husband got her son.. and they started walking to the store... and i was still standing there.. blindly piling away groceries.. because i felt like i missed a chance to say something.. i should have said something.. a missed opportunity to reconnect with an old friend, even just to say "hi.. how are you?"

i don't know it's all very strange.. she was as close to me as kelly was at the time.. if not possibly closer.. and i couldn't even make the words come together to say hi.. it's weird.. i sat in the car while we drove the 5 minute drive back home and i kept thinking about high school. about the friends i had.. and about casey.. and then i realized.. casey is the only friend i have left from high school.. and that's only because i married him.. what if i hadn't gotten married to my high school sweetheart.. what if i were going back to my high school reunion in 3 years and didn't have anyone to reconnect with.. if it weren't for casey.. i would have more luck reconnecting with the 2000 class than my own..

but i don't really know what this post was about.. i just kinda wanted to get it off my chest because it was starting to plague me.. i should have at least said hi.. but besides the smile.. she didn't regard me either... so i could just let it go.. it might not have been her..

it made me miss the friends i have now..

i love you guys..

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

i've been tagged..

so.. apparently i have to follow this..

1. Link to the person who tagged you
2. Post the rules on your blog
3. Write six random thoughts about yourself
4. Tag six or so people at the end of your post
5. Let each person know he or she has been tagged
6. Let the tagger know when your entry is posted

Six random things about me:
1. i have an irrational phobia of milk. i can't drink it at other people's houses and i hate when it's anywhere but in a cup or bowl.. if it's on skin, it just makes me cringe.

2. all three formal dresses i've ever worn, for junior prom, senior ball and my wedding gown have all had midnight sexy blue on it.. big surprise..

3. when i find something that interests me.. i will do internet research until there is nothing else to know about it.. usually movies or celebrities.. twilight for example.. i can't stop staring at my blog header... it just makes me smile!!!!

4. I know exactly where Kelly Clarkson was the day Britney Spears shaved her head *sigh* yeah yeah.. i know.. it's creepy.. i also know that she was in new jersey for the live earth concert on my wedding day, 7.7.07, so it would have been pointless to ask her to come and sing for us.. although had i been more imbalanced.. i probably would have..

5. sometimes.. when i look at casey and the sun hits his face just right.. i swear he has golden eyes, just like twilight.. i'm not kidding..

6. i have a 1 in 8 chance of having a baby with blue eyes.. i kinda hope it's 1 or 2.. i don't think i'd have it in me to have 8 kids for one to have blue eyes.. bwahahah.. no really.. i'd settle for one at this point..

btw.. danni.. did you ever get my hecka random text???

tag suckas!--
and JD already did it.. :P

Monday, October 13, 2008

happy things...

as if i didn't have enough things to smile about today.. i love my new banner... :) it just makes me so smiley!!! and it's even better because i stayed up until 1 am touching up this and lightening up that... and this is the finished work.. and i'm pretty darn proud of it!!

and on top of that.. they released the running time for twilight, which is going to be 30 minutes longer than they originally released.. 2 whole freakin' hours of twilighty goodness!! which is just as close to heaven on earth that i can see right now!! this movie is going to turn towns inside out.. i can just see it now!! it's not entirely like Harry Potter.. but i think Twilight fans are much more ravenous.. and we will fight and scartch and bite and attack anyone who gets in our way.. ok.. i might stand off to the side and watch.. but still.. it'll be interesting to see what kind of animals this movie turns it's fans into on that opening weekend..

which reminds me.. kristin.. we're going to the show.. where and when during the weekend.. if there is a midnight showing do you want to do that on thursday night or just find a time during the weekend to watch it.. let me know.. it'll be mayhem.. and i think i might bring my ACU batting helmet just in case.. :)

so.. this morning.. i was going to post a whiney.. sad post about my old friend again.. yesterday was her birthday.. and even though we had that falling out the day after our wedding.. we have only talked about 3 times since then.. and it's been 15 months since casey and i got married.. anyway.. i called her to wish her a happy birthday.. and really... i don't know why i subject myself to this friendship.. or onesided friendship.. or whatever it is.. i was giving it a chance.. i don't know what else to do, i've taken the first step forward and she theoretically stepped back..

first she didn't even recognize my number.. which means that she either erased my number from her phone or she's gotten a new one and didn't have mine memorized to program it.. i really hope to god that it's the second one.. i'd hate to think that 15 years of friendship means pretty much nothing in the grand scheme of my lifetime.. i mean.. 15 years is more than half of my life.. so, i wished her a happy birthday after telling her who i was.. which is probably what bothers me the most of the whole conversation.. and then she asked the usual.. how are you.. fine.. you?.. good.. good.. pleasantries that we never had to do before.. but now it's awkward.. and strained.. i hate it.. of course she asks if we have any babies on the way yet.. and i stifle a laugh at her and say no.. not yet.. and then turn it around and ask her if she has any on the way.. just a quip.. not sure if she got it.. she's usually good about catching my sarcasm.. but it's probably even more difficult to tell now.. since my humor with her is dryer and not as playful anymore.. so yeah.. she was out to lunch with her parents so i just wished her a happy birthday again and left it at that.

now.. seriously.. it only bothers me because she seems completely unphased by the lack of communication between us.. and that's what hurts.. being "best friends" for 14 years and then on a misundertanding that was solely her fault.. :) ... we (she) calls it quits.. ok fine.. i'm done trying.. i hate feeling this way after talking to her.. so that's it.. i'm out...

i really wasn't planning on blogging all of this in light of the great news that casey and i got this morning.. we finally got the word about our town house!!!! you think you guys can fly in to help casey and i move into our townhouse, in 17 days?!?!?!?!? that's right.. november 1st.. we've got the ok to move in... and i couldn't be happier.. no really.. it might not be showing. but i swear.. on the inside i'm like a bundle of happy nerves.. i really can't wait.. it's going to be awesome.. and even though it's small.. it'll be great because it'll be ours and that's what is going to make it amazing..

yeah.. that's all.. join me in a happy dance!!!


You moved the tea!!!!!

bear with me...

i like to change the header of my blog a lot.. :)

Thursday, October 9, 2008

please don't read this.. it's not worth it..

i really don't have anything to blog about.. so i figure i'll just ramble on and on about random happenings in my life..

my sister and i have a standing agreement, if you will, to go get pedicures every few weeks. we hadn't gone since before k-luv's wedding, so we went last tuesday.. the ladies there are very nice and friendly. well, my sister and i went in there later in the evening, so there wasn't any other customers except one lady who was getting her nail polish removed or something.. well, my sister and i pick out our colors and go to the chairs they set up for us. and then there starts some kind of argument but not really between one of the ladies and the other customer. the lady wanted her to pay first before they did something. but i don't know if the customer girl took it as saying that she was going leave without paying or what.. it was all very uncomfortable.. i didn't see anything wrong with it.. if you pay first in full.. and then if you like what they did, add a little tip, that's no big deal, right? well she kind of got all fussy and left.. and then a few minutes pass and the lady that the girl argued with was doing my sister's nails and apologized for what happened earlier.. and told us that that girl had done that before or it's happened to them before where they removed the polish and the customer didn't pay.. like seriously.. you can't do that at home.. you have to pay?? i understand if you're going to get something else done, like another color, but just removal?? whatever.. lazy ho.

anyway.. i'm reading Something Blue getting really into it because it's at a good part, and i hear the lady doing my sister say.. "this is a beautiful color.. " and i hadn't been paying attention because when i look down to my sister's foot i see the brightest hot green neon color i've ever seen... brighter than neon signs.. and i start cracking up.. and then they all start cracking up and my sister gets all self conscious like.. wtf.. what's wrong with it.. and i could barely get out that i just didn't expect to see a color like that when i heard the girl say it was a beautiful color.. yes it's very nice.. but my eyes bugged out when i saw it and i couldn't help but laugh..

and that's all.. really not a lot going on with my life lately.. we're still waiting to hear about the townhouse.. casey's family had set up traps in the garage, and ended up catching three mice in one evening.. i heard two of the traps snap shut, but i just couldn't bring myself to go out there and look if the trap had gotten anything.. i figure if i hear it snap.. that's good enough for me..

plus, the other time they'd caught something a few months ago.. i was reading my book and i heard it snap, and i practically jumped out of my skin of scared the bejebus out of me.. and then i could still hear the little arm scratching at the trap trying to get free i imagine.. and that was enough.. i didn't need to see it.. i imagined it.. and i've been haunted by it ever since..

oh yeah.. it's fleet week in san francisco. the blue angels are in town, and at noon today they're going to start practicing all around the bay, flying the skies and what not.. i kind of want to go to the city this weekend to see it.. but it's just going to be so crowded and i have a baptism to go to on saturday for my cousin's baby boy.. but navy men and airforce guys all over the city.. what more could a girl want... to look at??? :)

anyway.. so yeah.. i really hope you didn't read that whole long thing. it really wasn't worth it.. if i could give those minutes of your life back.. i would..

and by the way.. NEW TWILIGHT TRAILER tonight!!!!


You moved the tea!!!!