2 days late.. so sue me..

mood: frackin' tired..
music: i keep singing On My Own in my head because of GLEE.

so yeah.. nothing.. absolutely NOTHING new with me.. it's disappointing really. jd can attest to the fact that the only things that have been happening to me lately have been in my dreams.. and even then, they're more nightmares than anything.

i don't have anything really to blog about except that the new moon poster is super sexy as are the people on it.. and i am brimming with jealousy people at the cannes film festival in france got to see a preview of the movie..

but never fear, at the MTV movie awards next week they'll probably be showing the same clip. i'm not so sure i wanna see it.. last go around with twilight i knew practically everything before it was happening.. even the stuff that strayed from the book.

supposedly new moon is going to be more haunting as it should be.. i already know way too much about the differences that i'd like to.. but yeah.. i'm whining..

miss you girls..

new banner..

and i'll post a new blog tomorrow.. not like anyone is really interested.. :)

it's about damn time!!!

mood: lazy
music: no music.. just casey sleepin' beside me

let's see if i can get this posted.. since internet at kc's house is horrific.. it freakin keeps cutting out..

anyways.. so... kelly's new album came out.. and as you can see by my new banner.. it's so good! seriously! some good stuff on here! it's rare that i can find an entire album that i don't mind listening to. no doubt had a cd like that i think it was return of saturn, you'd think i'd know it off the top of my head.. but still so yeah.. great freakin' album she's coming back with a vengeance and it's going to be fantastic!!

and oh yeah.. i went to a REALLY small town named forks and for being such a small town.. it's incredibly known throughout this little fandom called twilight.. you guys may have heard of it before.. hmm?? well.. i got some pics up here.. and on my facebook but i thought i'd post some just to show off my amazing "extended arm self portraits.." :) btw.. just to let you know.. there is a picture at the end that might not be appropriate for work.. it's not INCREDIBLY grotesque.. but it makes me giggle.. just a warning.. :) ok.. onward!


longest 50 miles EVER btw... i swear, when bella talks about the drive from port angeles to forks.. she's not kidding.. it's pretty much NOTHING...


hallelujah we made it!!!



our twilight room.. :) don't be jealous.. i would have preferred an Emmett room, but that's just me..


i had just got done telling my cousins and their friend how i have this aversion to onions, tomatoes and cilantro because they were making fun of the way i dip my chips into salsa.. which is like just the very corner of the chip so that all i get is the "juice" of the salsa, you know.. well i guess they thought that i said "i absolutely love everything about salsa.. gimme more onions, tomatoes and especially cilantro!!!!!!!" D: so they ordered pico de gallo, and i was like.. oh, i thought that was a kind of salsa.. maybe i've been wrong all this time and i might actually be able to eat some.. uh.. no. it is exactly the manifestation of all that is evil to me.. and to top it all off... the restaurant chops up jalapenos and tosses those into the disaster as well.. what the hell!?!?!? i couldn't help but laugh my head off because i was like.. "what on earth would make you think that i'd want to eat that if i'm dipping just the very corner of my chip into the salsa so i don't get anything on it?!?!?" incredulous.. :)


don't make fun of my faces.. it's been a very long day and an incredibly freezin' night..


this is Second Beach. we must have passed right by first beach because i didn't even see a sign for it!


La Push it! La Push it real good!
yeah.. umm.. i found a driftwood that looked like a thingy..

:)

so there is my trip..

i'm really sorry the pictures are so massive.. i just took the html links.. and didn't bother resizing.. please forgive the laziness.. remember up there.. it says i'm lazy. :)

Nevermind.. i figured out how to change them. right on!

missed you guys.. wish you all could have come with...

Guess who's back... back again...

mood: Crazy Happy!!!
music: KELLY!!!!

oh yes.. oh yes... my birthday is early this year!!! kelly clarkson is releasing her new album tomorrow and my goodness gracious i'm about as excited as i was for my wedding!! seriously! a great day in my life..

there was an internet leak, and let me tell you how proud how i am of myself for not caving and downloading it before it was released.. i feel like such a strong fan! AHAHAHHA...

but i come bearing gifts.. because my world consists of casey.. kelly clarkson and twilight.. so i have 2 of those worlds colliding in two different videos!!






*giggle*

i love her.. and i love twilight.. oh and i love casey also.

go get her new album because most of you are from texas.. bwahahahaha....

ok.. back to my corner..

overwhlemed for the underwhelming...

mood: frustrated
music: Kelly Clarkson - Sober

it's really irritating feeling like the weak link in your marriage. Casey is pretty much an all around better person than I am. He's more goal oriented and directional whereas I am cluttered and floating through my days with one thing in mind.. to go home and try and catch up on sleep. Really... when I'm not thinking about Casey.. I'm pretty much thinking about how much I'd love to be in bed, sleeping. It's pretty sad. But I could go on and on about how much better at life Casey is than me, but really.. i don't wish to depress myself further..

We are about 70% on our way to buying our own condo. I don't even know where my mind was the first 65% of the process. Granted we did only start looking with this new realtor less than a month ago. Like the week before the Superbowl. And now we're already almost ready to sign the papers for the deed. It's insanity. It took us almost a year with our other realtor to even get this close. (And for something only half as good as this one.) And then on the last leg of the process we balked and backed out because they were trying to bully us into buying something that wasn't worth what we were going to pay in the end.

Anyway.. so the thing is.. and it's totally changeable.. is that I have been ZERO help with Casey in doing the stuff that needs to be done for this whole thing. I feel like I was only there to sign the check, which is even more laughable, because it's not even my money, mostly. once again, he's better at saving than I am. But I'm supposed to be part of these decisions, and i don't even know what the fuck we're deciding for. I don't feel like i'm keeping up the slack on my side..

I don't know the real reason for this post. Maybe it was just because i said i would post a new header when i posted a new entry.. but i think there was a deeping reason for it.

i'm sorry i'm not doing a very good job at marriage baby....

also.. i kind of want to apologize for my last entry and the hissy fit i was having when i posted it. :) that definitely backfired.. because when i post entries on here.. i have casey's email address listed for alert! yikes! so yeah.. not that he couldn't tell that i was pissed because he was sitting at the table behind me.. but he read that i called his a bastard prick and that's just not nice.. completely justified at the time of said hissy fit.. but i prefer softer terms of endearment. :) i really do love you.. sorry about that.....

kthanksbye.

sometimes.... you feel like a nut..

Mood: cranky
Music: i'm whistling the same inane notes over and over... bc it bothers people sometimes.. and that's what kind of mood in..

Sometimes..

sometimes i just need : piss someone off like they piss me off.

somtimes i want : to punch the fuckin' wall.

somtimes i like to : just be annoying as fuck.. because i'm petulant like that.

sometimes all it takes : is one line to really piss me the fuck off.

somtimes i picture : grinning like a fool while everyone around me is grumpy and pissy.

sometimes i wish : i didn't have such a short fuse.. but what kind of fun would that be.

sometimes i find : that i am immature.. and sometimes it doesn't bother me.

sometimes i take : a deep breath.. even though it doesn't help.

sometimes i look: happy.

sometimes i hate: myself.. for hating other people, which then pisses me off.

sometimes it’s nice: to pretend like you're doing alright.. .

sometimes it hurts: when people are fuckin'g bastard pricks..

sometimes it makes me happy : no.. i can't find anything for that right now..

sometimes it’s sad: i'm in this kind of mood.

sometimes i listen : to music too loud to drown out anger.

sometimes i sleep: angry.

sometimes i like to watch : things on youtube to make me laugh.

sometimes i feel: happy.. but right now i'm fuckin' pissed the fuck off..

sometimes i rant: when i'm pissed off.. can you tell??

sometimes i never: want to leave the house.

sometimes i really: to just start my life.


When I’m .....

sad, i want: a drink

happy, i need: to cry

mad, i wish: i had a punching bag

overjoyed, i find: fault in things, still..

indifferent, i like to: try and sleep it off

content, i never: want it to go away.

frustrated, all it takes: a word from the only person that makes me happy to drive me over the edge.. then i'm alone in the world..


If you had the choice of going back in time to or go forward in time to see the future, which would you choose?
i wouldn't.. what's happened in the past has molded to be who i am and the way i see things.. i can't change who i am.. i can only change what i'll be. and right now... i want to NOT be pissed the fuck off...

FUCK!

let's play blog tag..

Mood: giggly
Music: kings of leon - taper jean girl


i've been tasered.. i mean.. tagged.. by kellianne..

i'm gonna post 10 honest/hecka random/facts about me! i know.. you all can hardly contain your excitement!

and away we go...

1. i can listen to any one song over and over and over for any extended period of time without getting sick of it.. same goes with movies.

2. my baby brother, no matter how much of a pain in the ass he is, is the glue that holds my family together. without him, we would have imploded... but since we needed to all work around being home with him..

3. kc is the best guy i've ever met.. really..

4. kelly clarkson is my absolute favorite.. ever..

5. i have dropped my iphone more times that i can count.. and it saddens me.

6. i miss having friends that i can hang out with with just a phone call. we all live too far.. it's hard to believe that i miss texas, when i was so adament about getting back to california..

7. at any given time, i can have more than $700 worth of apple products on my person. iphone, nanos, and kc's mom's ipod.. it's sickening..

8. stewie needs a haircut so freakin' bad!!!

9. i like to carry stewie around like a baby.. i won't comment further on it..

10. i like to cook... if only i had my own kitchen.. :(

okey dokes.. tag yourself! i mean.. ok.. katie.. kristen.. jd.. danni already did it.. kluv tagged me.. anne.. joh.. leandra.. gimme your fun facts!

happy birthday casey baby!!!

and... because even if you've seen the red carpet interviews.. this one is unlike any you've ever watched.. twilighters at their best!! LOL FOREVER!!!!